I am not sure how common it might be?
Owner of my company wants to make a software and copy a similar product for about 90 %.
And get it done by 15th of next month.
I am only guy who will be doing programming. A consultant comes in the company twice a week to get me understand the flow. Also in between work,I may get other project's client call .If there is a problem,then it must be solved keeping my current work aside. I started working on this project from starting this month, I hardly have completed 10-15 % of work. I haven't understood entire flow. Also during work, I always get distracted by thoughts of humiliation,abuse and blame for firing other programmers done on me by owner. I am not able to manage myself.
Confused between three feeling
1)Just keep focus on work:- Keep focus on work. If I am facing this focus problem in this company. Then I wont be able to sustain in other company. I am convincing myself that this is my last project and complete it asap and leave and search for job.
2)Humiliation,Abuse and Blame done in past:-
In past,I have done some silly mistakes
for which I was humiliated.
I didn't handover some work
to my junior and I have not taught them programming properly
so company's owner fired one junior .
Although through owner's wife talking to my manager,
I get to know due to shortage/stopage of funds,
we are firing the some people including that junior for which i was blamed.Later after three month I got to know about one opening and helped him recruit there.He later on thanked me for that.
But still I dont know why I feel guilty.
I am not able to concentrate.
3)Sometime search New Jobs:- When I think of these, I dont know I will sustain or not in new job.Or whether I am coward to resign these job. I have complete project some of my own without any support. What if funds is stopped by stakeholder,I might be forced to resign or any junior . I dont know what to do?