I recently started working full-time as a software developer. [potentially unnecessary background info here]
I've always had a problem focusing. It's very difficult for me to push down my curiosity in order to produce.
One thing that is particularly troubling to me, however, is that during work I find myself staring at the same thing for minutes at a time. Particularly if there is something I've been thinking about on my non-work time, it's INCREDIBLY hard to stop thinking about that thing and instead focus on the work I have to do. As I mentioned, I'll stare at something for a few minutes before realizing I've been background processing a completely different thing. I'm not actively thinking about something, in fact I'm actively NOT thinking. I've gone for over five minutes at a time with a completely blank "active mind".
I was able to graduate from college despite this, but now it's gotten to the point that I'm starting to feel incredibly guilty that I'm not focused. I feel I owe it to my employer to be on task, even if I don't like what I'm doing.
I've tried meditation and other things to try increasing the skill of focus, but nothing has seemed to help. Meditation has without a doubt made me a calmer, more patient person. It hasn't helped me focus. Also, I read the recommendations here: How to focus on a long class?. Great ideas, but even minimizing all potential distractions is worthless when the biggest distraction is myself!
Any recommendations? Please, anything at all that could help. I'm at my wit's end with myself.