Two days back I read about the Germans atrocities during world war II. The gas chambers, the scientific experiments of bone transplants without anesthesia, rapes etc. And now my mind is disturbed. I am frightened. It has been 3 days, and that is the only thing I keep thinking about. I imagine scenes, and that causes me pain.
I sit on human pedaled rickshaws and when the driver is physically weak and old, I get saddened and disturbed.
I see a goon misbehaving with a weak man, I get saddened and disturbed. Went for dinner at a local market few months back. It is a very busy market especially on a Sunday night. While having dinner I watched 5 men lettings off bunches of balloons in the air. At first I thought they were some fun loving people who were making pure merry. Went closer, only to find out that those muscular men had taken over the balloon man's cycle and were letting off all the balloons tied to it! I watched the balloon man's plight, he was a thin man watching helplessly the acts of the goons.
While returning home the thoughts of people getting murdered in the daylight, girls getting raped, flashed across my mind. I was crying, literally.
I have not noticed my other family members having the same degree of sensitivity.
Can I do something about it?
This problem is effecting my job, my mind. Can't concentrate.