It seems that I have no ability to be productive. Outside of the occasional week where feeling accountable to somebody else has kept me on task, I have never had the self discipline to accomplish anything significant. Even after those weeks, the accountability did not go away, just the work ethic.
Every technique I find to improve self discipline requires some discipline to use the technique, which I never seem to have.
I have an uncanny ability to not work, and just end up reading news, or cooking dinner, or finding something else to do.
The reason that I am posting this, is that I confront the idea of working in my head, and instead of distracting myself from the idea, I held myself to the idea of not working. In addition to my aversion, my legs began to tingle and feel uncomfortable, and I felt an uncomfortable stress in my whole body. That seems problematic...
How can I build the self discipline to be productive, given that I don't even have enough discipline to practice most self discipline development exercises.